Saturday, January 13, 2007

on blogging

I realise that having an open blog means you can't be entirely forthcoming with your blog entries. It's not that I have anything to hide, but rather that sometimes certain thoughts are just that... passing thoughts. Musings. Dwellings. Or temporary, hot anger. Stuff that eventually cools down and lets off. So putting it on record is definitely not a good way of letting it go. Putting it on public record for other people to read and see what may have been some past whining that you'd rather let go of is even worse.

Always remember the old story of this ancient person who wronged you terribly and you want to forgive but just hope that you'd rather not see this person anymore? So keeping a remembrance of what wrong this person has done to you in your bedroom is one sure way of keeping the anger alive. Blogging has a catharsis effect. But better to shout it out or whine to a close one than to keep it in permanence.

Just like old photos of my car. And old photos of other... things... Mementos. Certain songs. Old letters.

But I'm not saying its bad to keep remembrances.

Actually, its more of the state of the heart. If deep down inside you've truly let go of something - you'd remember the joy, the happiness, the lessons learnt from whatever that episode was, when you look upon that remembrance or trigger.

But when you're still hurting, out of sight is still good for dealing with it. For the time being at least. So you can sort your thoughts out.

But once you've let go of something, would you still want to blog about it? :)

But this I say, brethren, the time is short: it remaineth, that both they that have wives be as though they had none; And they that weep, as though they wept not; and they that rejoice, as though they rejoiced not; and they that buy, as though they possessed not; And they that use this world, as not abusing it: for the fashion of this world passeth away. - 1 Corinthians 7:29-31

Friday, January 05, 2007

contemplate

The Corrs - Dreams

Now here you go again you say you want your freedom
Well who am I to keep you down
It's only right that you should play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness, like a heartbeat drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering
What you had, and what you lost

Yeah, thunder only happens when it's raining
and players only loved you when they're playing
Yeah, women they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean you'll know
You'll know

Now here I go again I see the crystal vision
Well I keep my visions to myself
Well it's only me that wants to wrap around your dreams
and have you any dreams you'd like to sell
Dreams of loneliness, like a heartbeat, drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering
What you have yeah and what you lost

Thunder only happens when it's raining
and players only love you when they're playing
Yeah, women they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean you'll know
You'll know...